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Vaughan saw the doctor on Friday for her 4 month visit. She weighs 14 lbs 11 oz and is 26" long! She's in the 75th percentile for weight and the 90th percentile for height. She had the same round of shots she had at her 2 month appointment. I was so relieved that Brett had taken the day off so that he could come with me. He always holds her when they stick her poor little thighs. I hoped the extra chub she has on those things would help cushion the pokes but not so much. She really squealed but overall she did great. That night I think she had a little fever so I have her some infant Tylenol and she was fine by Sunday. She is really starting to be a happier baby. The crib came and went but the pack n' play has been so awesome. She LOVES it. She actually likes sleeping in there. At this point I could really care less where she sleeps as long as it's not in my bed anymore so we both can get the rest we need!! We are going to try rice cereal with breastmilk this week so I will definitely keep you posted. I am sure I will have some hilarious pictures of that.

Auntie Shannon made her first infant tutu and guess who got to be the model?

My sister in law, Shannon, pointed out to me that I don't have any time for ME. She said that she doesn't think that I have postpartum depression but just that I have NOTHING that I do for myself; like a pottery class or yoga or even just alone time to read. I thought about it and she's exactly right!! I NEED to find something that I want to do and do it! I have ALWAYS wanted to take a pottery class and when I was pregnant I even looked into it but never got around to actually signing up. So that is my goal. I need to find something and set a time aside for just me. I get back to ya and let you know what I find. Thanks Shannon!

So I've decided to buy the book that Brooke Shields wrote, "Down Came The Rain" about her struggles with Postpartum Depression. I am still not feeling quite like my old happy self. Some days I feel really good, but others I find myself crying and crying and am not even really sure why. I know that it's my hormones and it will all figure itself out, but it's been almost 4 months now, so I think reading up on it as much as I can will help. I know that going back to work hasn't really helped much either. The whole transition has been harder on me than Vaughan I'm sure. I totally thought that it would help both Vaughan and I and it seems to be making her even more attached to me. She is EXTREMELY hard-headed and stubborn and I am having the roughest time transitioning her to her crib. She does not have anything that calms and soothes her besides my boob and obviously she cannot be hanging on me 24/7!! It's making it hard on my mother in law, who watches her on Mondays, and my sister in law, Shannon, who watches her on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. I know that I have to start changing things up but then I get all stressed out and feel worse. Any advice for me!???

There are only a couple brands of clothes that I absolutely L O V E, DIE FOR, MUST HAVE. WHY do they have to keep making stuff that I just have to have! Free People is one of the brands. I recently found out that a little boutique called, Panache, downtown St. Charles carries the line and I am SO excited. My mom actually bought a tank for me the other day. I have a 20% coupon for there so I am saving up until the end of July so I can go over there and get another few things. Here are some of the TO DIE FOR pieces-mostly new stuff for Fall.